dimanche 29 mars 2015

Evil thought killing me please help

Hi all,

This is my first post in this forum. Please ladies advice me and help me to come out of this. I consider you all as my sister since I don't have one.


From last July I am very depressed due to my health problems and if I go to doctor they tell your mind is disturbed, be positive and you will b OK. They asked me to indulge in god prayers and work. I am doing but sometimes I go mad. I even went to psychological treatment but in vain.I can't control my mind. My problem is when I sit before god for pooja or prayer I have evil thoughts about god like don't waste time he will not save you, why are you wasting money on doing pooja and don't put moneybin hundi it's not worth and also have bad thought that I am pressing my leg on venkatachalapathy and Lakshmi amma photo. I feel some force is making me to think like this. I feel I am not fit to be a good wife or good mother. I want to stay in some ashram leaving them. I get angry and all my relatives term me as mad and they don't want to speak with me. Some people are feeling happy for this. I pity my son and my hubby. My hubby lost their parents some years and no brothers and sisters. In four years of marriage we are blessed with beautiful son and own house this made our relatives envy on me. They think I am so blessed as I don't have mil and film but I myself only know how difficult it is without them. I respect them but they are also not saving me in hard times. I now pray to saibaba but sometimes negative thoughts come there also.. Please ladies save me . oneday I went to a point of killing me and my son at my mom place as she also not believing me I have a problem. I repent for this every single day whenever I see my child face and my hubby is not understanding me he always shouts at me and making me angry. I feel like everything is over and I am not interested in family life. If human have problem they pray to god to save. In my case God does not want me to pray to him. I don't know where ican go.... I don't have friends or true soul to express my feelings that's why I wrote here please ladies input your advice keep in my mind my son and his future.


Urgent advice needed how to overcome evil thoughts while praying to god....


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