No Clue of whats going on my life !!!!

Hi All,

I got married last year, resigned job and came to US, when I am working I used to be very busy, staying in hostel leading very happy life, suddenly my parents came up with alliance and within no time I am married at age of 25, Basically I am reserved takes time to mingle, but once I feel comfortable I develop bond very soon, unfortunately this didn't happen with my husband I asked him time to be close to him, he mistook it and even told in-laws that I am not letting him to touch, within 3 days my SIL and MIL started talking to me about my personal issues, I didn't like it I thought that's something personal btw me and hubby, he just stayed for 1 week after marriage as he came on short leave from US , within that week he always used to ask many questions why are you not talking to me?didn't like me and all. I explained him that I am reserved and can make plans after I go US, but he used to go and say everything to in laws . I felt he is still mommy's guy, after a week he left to US, I am with my parents daily same conversation on phone, long arguments, he said he felt very bad and need time,

My parents involved and finally got visa and came after two months, from very first day started digging past days again and again, I compromised and started being close to him but what ever happens he brings that topic and fight. Mostly every week some issue, I am fed up he minds every little thing I do and starts arguing, saddest part is immediately he will call his dad and asks what to do, she is talking this way what to do ? he does whatever his mom/dad/sis says ,I cant say he is bad person , sometimes he will be very good, cares me, calls many times from office check on me because I am alone at home, but he argues over small issues even listens what I am talking to my dad, checks my mobile,

Recently after many fights I became very aggressive started throwing things, yelling because I am not able to take things anymore, still he wont compromise he pushes me till I become aggressive, calls his parents say that I behaving like mad, later an hour he apologize and says wont let it happen again.....but goes on again and again, became routine, dunno what to do, cant go back to India, eagerly waiting for work permit, please advice most importantly I am losing my temper dunno why I am turning up this way,I left my career, parents, friends feels like I have nothing now, I just cant bare him argue. I don't have car to go myself anywhere, no friends either because here Indian community very busy with kids and career,my job is just to do household chores I feel so lonely and frustrated, My parents are very supportive they understood I am not happy and even told to come back India. Please Advice

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No Clue of whats going on my life !!!!