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Hi friends,

I was a silent reader of the IL forum,but after seeing many forums sharing personal problem seeking advice, i thought to post it mine.

my parents are looking for marriage proposal for the past 6 years, but nothing seems to click.Everytime it will go off with horoscope mismatch, not satisfied with the profile,etc. My expectations like he should be educated, settled in a decent job and i should continue my job after marriage. Am working as a IT professional,thirty plus now.my relatives,friends always ask abt my marriage whenever i speak in person or in phone.Though its obvious, am frustrated with this question, so started avoiding friends and relatives nowadays. Am not going to any functions nor relatives house due to this. Am always sick in my mensus days due to unbearable pain(almost 5 days) for which i consulted with doctor,gettin the same replies like it can be medicated only post marriage.To add it to the above problems, now am facing problems officially as well.. Am totally depressed, now i dont have any friends to share with, the only person i can share everything is my mother(my father is no more). She always getting worried about my marriage and she got the heart problem due to this tension. I have consulted psychiatrist twice after my mom forced me to and i dont felt i should continue that.i To get away from all this, am spending more time in net and reading novels, which makes me stay late at nite (sometimes upto 2)

Friends, am not saying am the only one in the world facing all the above problems, but i cudnt bear it all this in my mind and lead a normal life.I avoided my best friends intentionally due to my personal problem and it hurts me a lot. my dear ones always advice to stay calm and have a free mind, but its not possible to do that. i always wonder what is my destiny and where it will lead me into?

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