Ok..I have to get it out....no more lying..REAL reasons for me to go to India..

I know you ladies have been very kind in giving me advice and solutions but I feel

I have been hiding the real reasons on why I want to go back to India...

I may sound very kiddish like a little gal but I really want to pour my heart out.

It has been really itching me..so kindly do not judge me but please give me

if my return to India will be worth it...

the real scenario..

I will be tleast 38 to 40 age when I get back to India.

It will be in bangalore.I have one cousin and sis is based in chennai.mom lives there too.

job - I am planning to study hr courses but not sure about working when I get back to India.reason- financially we are fine and not so ambitious.If I get bored,assuming I won't esp with 2 kids I will take up one.will a 40 yr old get a back in India?

I want to socialize.I am not an introvert but very choosy with friends.I hate arguments and am sensitive. I want to have decent friends(not neccessarily best of friends) who would want to I go out to malls,dining,if lucky party..

and have a good time.will that be possible?

there will not be lonely moments in India.I will also be in bangalore which is very mordern.housework was never a hugeproblem with me in US.reason..I love cleaning up my home.It is my "disney vacation" lol. so in India,it should be even easier with maids.

I get influenced very heavily influenced by movies..I got influenced by bollywood movies and came to usa and now getting influenced by Indian movies about life there especially in bangalore and with so many people in India praising

the place saying "it has best of both worlds".makes me think why the heck am I living here when I can live a good life there

Please see "happy banglore -youtube video" and Bangalore days movie.

dressing..I love western and Indian attire and bangalore is a good place for that..

I like attention.I like appreciation.In usa,things are robotical.nobody cares.

vacations are always a blast in India everytime!imagine being on vacation forever!

FOOD.FUNCTIONS.YOUTHFUL.LIVELINESS EVERYWHERE.

honestly...I do not see any other reason to go back.Please please do not judge me.I wrote from my heart very clearly without giving other reasons..

I feel better now...

Is it worth giving up my beautiful home, vacations like aruba and swizz,hubby's good career,kids education in usa,privacy and freedom and going back?

Ok..I have to get it out....no more lying..REAL reasons for me to go to India..