first of all i would start my post by apologing because it is going to be lengthy post. I cant discuss it with friends or family, so thought of sharingit with you and seeking for some advice.
Little background- it hasbeen 7 years since i have been married.i have one son who is 5 years old but living with his nana-naani (this is different story) and second is on way.i have planned c section on 2 september. In my family i have mil, bil who is college going and sil who is married.
now coming to the point.. i am more qualified than my husband. In academice he was very bad. When we got married i was childish enough not to guve it a thought. I just wanted my husband to respect me and my family that time. I never knew what else one should look for in a groom to lead a good life. We got married and since beginning, he was very loving and caring. After 6 months of marriage, his business took a down side and he had to close it. Meanwhile i aas working in a good company. He tried here and there for jobs but no luck. He is the person who cant work under nybody. He opted for one job or another but couldnt continue it. It's been now morethan 6 years situtation is same. He started one business 2 years ago with a partner but no success. In this businessthe investment was quite high. During these years, my sis in law got married amdhad to spent there also. I am working since then. My milis also working buther income is negligible. All bills and loans pays by my salary. During this whole period i never pretended or showed that i m the one who is managing whole thing. I love my husband and i know he loves me more. I cant see him sad or in tension. He never says no to me. I have given my debit card / credit card so that his male ego doesnt hurt.
My husband is very careless types of person but a 100 percent family man. Everyone praises him in both families. But i dont like his few things which i think is a block in his career. He always watches a lot of television which i think is a waste of time. He forgets everything , things which are important. He is so into outdoor trips. He is currently out os station, we ae financially broke but still he went with friends. He could have saved that money for the baby but hedidnt. Where i always restrict myself of buying things thinking it is a waste of money. I feel very depressed. He has excuses for all things.i just dont fgue much and say anything badto him thinking it will hurt him. But at the same time, i cried a lot and dont talk to him properly. Because he always listen doesnt say anything. When he speaks he only says that i know i am not good for you. You should have not married me. And i feel so bad i just cant explain in words. Then i think it is about money...ok i will earn it. But our expenses are more than earning.
He is so good, he takes care my family also..never uttered bad things about them. I am so confused how can i make him more resonsbile and tell him he should take things seriously now. He doesnt want to change though he says he will try. But i know he wont.
I know it is very long post. But i would really appreciate your help.
please help.. dont know what to do..
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