Just need to vent

Hello Ladies,

I just needed to say it and so I am here.

When I was growing up, I harbored tall ambitions in my career. I have equal or better degrees than my coworkers and my husband. However after marriage I moved wherever my husband moved and my career never really took off. I never bothered about all that since my married life was good anyways or should I say I was in love :)

Since the birth of my daughter my career has had a downward spiral and in the mean time by husband's has skyrocketed. I am not jealous but there are times I feel low and bad. I am weeping as I type this. My husband takes me for granted and I take my job for granted. I take leaves when my daughter is sick or when she has a school thing or a doc's visit and so on. I also HAVE TO leave work no matter what when her daycare ends. I also WFH most of the times. I drop and pick her up from daycare. I tend to my daughter like all mothers do - career woman or otherwise. No guilt trip there. And after all this my salary is only a half (or lesser) of what I think it should be (comparing to my year passouts and other peers in my ex-industry). And I feel like crying many days. Because of all this at my workplace I have no motivation. My juniors have moved past me.

Today I wanted to attend a training session which I thought will give my career some boost. However I cannot since i have to pick my daughter at that time. My hubby always works late and his job is so important that I have resigned to the fact that I can never ask him for anything like pick up etc. Today he is only going to an IPL game and it freaks me out. He can plan his evenings for team dinner, team games, meetings or just work. Whereas I have to drop everything to be home with my daughter. And at the end of the day, I feel she prefers the daddy for everything over mommy. Daddy has made himself so precious that when he is around, mommy does not exist :( I know it really does not matter. My daughter loves me dearly and so do I. But when I can't get anything my way whereas the husband can, I am sooooo angry. And it is affecting our marriage bigtime.

All this make me CRY :(

How do you women who have had excellent degrees and harbored big career aspirations manage to settle for "sub-par" careers or choose the home life cheerfully???????? PLEASEEEE HELP ME MAKE PEACE WITH THAT.

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Just need to vent